Do not lose faith in yourself! You won't be able to improve the command of your spoken English overnight. Learning language is a long and difficult process. However, it is important not to give up and to believe that you will get to the desired point sooner than later. This faith and belief is the driving force that helps you to achieve your goals. After all the hardships will come a moment when your spoke English will be on a very good level. So, remember: don't give up!